Bittersweet Life...

Friday, September 10, 2004

harlowz...!! had a great day today. ok lah... things kinda go my way. hehe... do i sound demanding and like a brat? well, didnt intend to though...

start it off, wenta eat breakfast with ema and ad! hehe.. at macs. forced ad out of bed, forced her to take cab over to tamp. and u noe wat, she was so gonggong tt she stopped at tm's mac.. so she had to like walk over to the interchange one. and, i had the most shocking moment of my life so far... i forgot and left my hp and wallet on the the table. gosh! i was really outraged..like not tt kinda outrage.. but u noe, like realli, realli shocked. haiz... i cant help it. it was my hp k?! i mean, i onli lost my wallet once... my hp, never. i was really.. i dunno. i bolted straight back to the mac... haiz. ask ad and ema how i reacted. anyhows, i got it back!! yay! at mac's, there was this cute baby beside us. he was cute!! absolutely cute... big eyes, a smile u can fall for and.. u noe, qualities of babies ya..? his name was syed nabil. one thing bout this baby, he doesnt like to wear his shoes and likes to play ard with his toes.. cute rite? hehe... ema and ad took a pic of him... big eyes baby..

after breakfast, walked to library. it was so hot... but, endured it though. wat else... reached the library, studied at the children's section. hehe... ok lar. managed to study. wat to do.. have to like make do with wateva. so... my hp rang. yes, didnt put on silent mode coz i tot the children's section would be pretty noisy. but u noe wat, it wasnt. and my ringtone vol was onli level 3. it isnt loud rite? well, it was kinda so juz now... realli flurried. ugh.. but wateva. it wasnt my fault... didnt expect those small brats at the lib to be damn disciplined and quiet...

sick and bored, called for siti spidey to come down. hehe... forced her in fact. asked her to bring her discman along. tu pun takde batt... haiz. tt's is siti. followed her to buy some stuff tt her mom instructed while i bought my batt. ad, siti aand i went shoppin.. at a budget shop according to siti. hehe... not bad for us ppl who dun go to markets. i die-die needed discman. haiz.. tt's juz me. anyways, at the shop where i bought the batt, paid $$ to this guy. he's a mly.. ok. then a kinda mid age chi lady came up to him, blabbering stuff to him. inspite him trying to say tt he didnt understand in both eng and mly, the lady still carried. hehe... pitied him. so like he kinda have to layan.. dunno wat happened though. to siti: thanks gal for coming down. u should have stayed on.. for the ice cream. it could have been worth ur time coming down to the lib. use ur brain lah gal... haiz. thanks once again. realli aprreciate it..

wenta SWESEN'S after lib! hooray!! have been craving for ice cream lately.. dun ask y. thank u so much ad for askin me along... muackz!! ordered salmon and mushroom baked rice.. the salmon was not nice... but, i was hungry. wat the heck. ad had cookies summit while i had STICKY CHEWY CHOHOLATE.. yummylicious!! well, it was totally sweet.. kinda eww after half way thru it.. but my cravings had been satisfied. hooray! wenta home.. thank god for mum not naggin.. hehe... oh yeah, service at swesen's tamp was horrible... never go there unless u have A LOT of time to spare, aitez?

juz wanna like blog bout sth else. i mean, u ppl like gonna be bored if i always talk bout me and me and my frens. rite? yeah.. tt's wat i kinda did, but i tryin my best not to, ya noe? so here's a lil sidetracking.

oh... wait. i dunno wat to talk bout. haiz... shall i talk bout love and relationship? i mean, this is da ONLI place where i can let go wat i think, wat i wanna say. the onli place where i dun havta feel uncomfortable letting go. so here.. wat is love? yes, the defination can be found in dictionaries, but is it as it is defined? i dunno. i honestly dunno. coz i've never felt love. even in family love, i dun feel it strongly. ppl love to be affectionate, to be loved. it would feel so gtreat to have a pillar of strength, someone whom u acan rely on. something tt will motivate u work harder, and somehow, this makes u succeed in ur life. but, love and relationship gets to these ppl esp teenagers like me, too fast. those who are in a relationship for fun and attention frm others are wasting their time. wasting the real opportunities love and life. i believe most of frens are heading in the rite direction in their relationship.. like liya and ais? i dunno... suz? juz assuming.. i dunno deeply bout u ppl's relationship. but all the best. =P there are some who totally ignores the other after i rejection. real farnie tt one.. well, too bad. face up to reality. i so noe some ppl like this... coz i experience this ppl a couple of times. hahah.. i mean, if u having such gd frenship with someone, would u wanna destroy it with one stupid proposal? u gotta noe the person better if u call him/her ur fren. if there's TOTALLY no attraction between the two of u, y take the risk? ugh... feli darlin, u should noe wat im talking bout rite? hehe... shhh... hehe...

ok.. tired already lah... kinda irritated talking bout ppl who cant take rejection.. oh well, some ppl do think they are mature enuf, but when they realli are faced up with the challenge itself, they are baffled and, at times, couldnt face up to others due to oh-i-m-so-great-but-i-failed-in-the-end attitude. hehe.. i feel so gd.. gosh... intended for tt someone to read, but dun think he reads this.. for myself, i noe im not ready for a relationship. i mean, who wanna date me up anyway? im ugly, boring.. defined wateva u wanna define. coz, i noe who i m. i noe wat i wanna do. i noe wat are my limits. i noe wat i want. i noe me.

Smashed into pieces at 9/10/2004 08:30:00 PM